I have read a plethora of memes that reiterate the same basic idea: Expect nothing and you shall never be disappointed. Disappointment is the driving motivation behind this meme. Why is the experience of disappointment so daunting? The standard dictionary entry for disappointment is “the feeling of sadness or displeasure caused by the nonfulfillment of one’s hopes.” I don’t doubt it. That is, the position advocated makes perfect rational sense. For one already rationally predisposed to this ratiocinated account of all human life, where else would one look to assess human experience? If sadness is too daunting and uncomfortable, and an ultimately needless, experience, then it is a fine conjecture to look to eradicate it. Indeed, one might venture to eradicate intentional desire from human experience altogether? Shall we Stoic-like aim to strengthen our rational disposition and self-control such that the lacking of anything at all is received with equal indifference? Shall we shun the passions and reinforce our rational propensity for order?
And yet when I look over my life it is not those moments of order, or those that conformed to some rationalized standard, that stand out most. Those moments that found me fully and passionately present are! But these moments weren’t fleeting; nor did they come uninvited. They are the outpouring of accumulated moments always stretching forward to be affirmed and reaffirmed! This is variously understood as the subjective comportment of self founded not on reason but on that inwardly manifest and outwardly professed will to claim one’s ownmost possibilities within and amongst all that both threatens to crush me and affords me the luxury to be anything at all!
Living life then is risky business.
Living life involves urgency of spirit.
Living life is premised on the experience of the delirium of freedom.
Living life involves the “dangerous privilege of living experimentally”.
Living life is despairingly happy at the best of times.
EXPECT EVERYTHING. BE FAITHFUL TO YOUR PROPENSITY TO LIVE YOUR UNIQUENESS AMONGST THOSE THAT MAKE THAT POSSIBLE WITHOUT MEASURE!